Lou Lou's World!

A 30 something girl in an ordinary world

My Family
Lou Lou - Me!::::::: Hubby - Long suffering husband ::::::: Princess - My almost 11 year old daughter ::::::: Beast Dog - My collie cross (who is anything but a beast! ::::::: Arum and Scarum - My folks::::::: Sis- My little sister who is taller than me!::::::: Scarlet - My bestest friend
Medically Me!
The two biggest medical events were in 1998 when I fractured my spine and in 2003 when I had a golf ball sized benign tumour removed from my breast.
Odd Me!
I broke my wrist trying to recreate Balero on roller skates, on my own... (twat)::::::: I'm very scared of mice, but cockroaches don't really bother me!(as much)::::::: I am a bit compulsive about washing my hands ::::::: I have Singstar rating singing "Heaven is a Place on Earth!"
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No title- there are no words
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
I would like to say I had a wonderful Christmas.

I would love to say it was joyful.

I would love to say it was the best ever.

It was nothing I could have prepared myself for.

Why didn't he just ask me to go home for Christmas?

Why did I have to get one of those dreaded phonecalls and fly half way round the world?

Did he know I was there?

I hope so.

I feel he did.

Did he know right until that last breath how much I wanted him to live, to stay and fight even though I knew it was impossible?

When I close my eyes. I see those last moments.

I keep waiting for the pain to envelope me.

It doesn't.

I am comfortably numb.

Filled with sadness. Teary at times - where is the overwhelming pain the wracking sobs of despair?

This is not real still.

I held your hand, I kissed you goodbye, I saw your last breathe.

Still it is not real.

Christmas Eve.

What did you get for Christmas?

I got to say goodbye to my Daddy.

I love you Dad. I miss you, I keep expecting you to walk in the door.

Comfortably numb.

I need to scream but I can't.

posted by Lou Lou @ 6:35:00 pm  
silly season
Monday, December 01, 2008
Silly season has begun!

Was at the Ball on saturday night - looking F A B U L O U S

great night muchos to drink.

found out someone who has never made any attempt to get to know me thinks i'm a stuck up bitch

bitch i can be but stuck up?

fuck you you shallow bitch - you who with your sad little friends have made me feel so fecking alone.

you who smile and say how are you


you are a sad pathetic woman who is too shallow to see beyond the shyness

rant over

actually i had a really good time !!!

love l xxx
posted by Lou Lou @ 9:33:00 pm  
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Name: Lou Lou
Home: Europe
About Me: I'm 5ft 3 1/2 and i have green eyes and long brunette hair that tends to have a mind of its own
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