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| My Family |
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Lou Lou - Me!:::::::
Hubby - Long suffering husband :::::::
Princess - My almost 11 year old daughter :::::::
Beast Dog - My collie cross (who is anything but a beast! :::::::
Arum and Scarum - My folks::::::: Sis- My little sister who is taller than me!::::::: Scarlet - My bestest friend |
| Medically Me! |
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The two biggest medical events were in 1998 when I fractured my spine and in 2003 when I had a golf ball sized benign tumour removed from my breast.
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| Odd Me! |
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I broke my wrist trying to recreate Balero on roller skates, on my own... (twat):::::::
I'm very scared of mice, but cockroaches don't really bother me!(as much):::::::
I am a bit compulsive about washing my hands :::::::
I have Singstar rating singing "Heaven is a Place on Earth!"
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Under Construction! - More to come here!
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| Tuesday, October 27, 2009 |
It has been too long; or maybe not, who knows and who is too say.
Since July, omg has it been that long? A lot has happened. I've started to write, and stopped, saved to draft and forgotten about it!
Things were looking up. I've finally got a decent social life, some people in my life who have become fantastic friends, and I mean proper friends - the rare kind. I've been out having fun, girly shopping, evenings socialising.
I took a trip back to UK. Did some fabulous shopping. Treated myself to a fabulous Tula handbag, and a Radley bag too! Oh the greed! Whilst we were there the fire alarms went off in the hotel we were stopping in! Slightly embarrassing moment involving my bra.
Came home. Had a few lovely days. Popped into work, oooooh there is a letter for you. confidential. OH SHIT.
So i came back of my hols to a meeting informing me that we were about to lose our jobs due to restructuring. Bastards. What a shocker. my boss found out in front of his staff. Our office was closing, being swallowed up by another. Two jobs would be ringfenced. I could take redundancy or try my luck for one of the jobs that would be based at another office.
The money involved was not life changing. It was hard still to choose. I chose to stay and fight.
A few weeks later I was interviewed along with the others that chose to fight it. Tasks/ interview and references from line managers. I honestly thought i didn't stand a chance. i knew i was indispensable to my boss, but since they'd just sacked him, my future was looking bleak.
On that fateful Monday night i took a phonecall advising me i was the best. The BEST candidate in all areas. i came out tops in all, far and above over the girls who had been some more years than me.
So i'm working still, in a different office which is strange, i have to get up at 6am to commute. but i have a job. Jobs are pretty few and far between here. i've been made to feel pretty welcome.
in between that I turned 36. 3 fecking 6.
I've also been missing dad. i could have really done with him. My first birthday without him.
On top of that there's been more nights out, party's and stuff.
should i carry on with this? shame not to, its been so many years, but then maybe i should stop. its tired, its lost its way. who knows....
love l xx |
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| Sunday, July 26, 2009 |
Socially, my life is on the up! I have never been out so much!
My life is on an even keel, and I think after the last 6 months I've had I deserve it even if I say so myself!
Beast dog has finally finished her treatment at the vets, a considerable sum later. but she has her leg, she is walking on it, not all the time, but she is using it, she is able to use the stairs, jump on and off the beds....she is her old self up to mischief!
I am pretty happy. Mums has booked her flight to come out later in the summer, and I can't wait to spend some time with her.
I am really and honestly doing ok.
Love L xxx |
| posted by Lou Lou @ 5:59:00 PM |
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| Sunday, July 12, 2009 |
A few weeks and a few changes.
Firstly best dog has had her cast fully off, she is now trying to use her leg, is able to manage stairs, can even jump on my bed! The scarring is heavy, in places i am not sure whether any hair will grow back but there is always hope. She is one brave doggy.
I have collected my eagerly awaited new car! mine, mine mine! I have not given him a name yet, my first male car, i name all my cars! He is fast and very sexy! jet black! I got a Mazda2 sport! I have had him less than a week and am clocking up the miles fast! name suggestiong gratefully received!
I've been out of the town with the laydees, had a great time. I was at a costume ball yesterday......i went as a whore, saloon girl! Top night. have another bash later this week, hawaiian this time! Any the following week anther do!
I drove a very long way to see Kings of Leon! In my old little car which had no air con, on a day temps were over 34 degrees!!! Well worth the effort! Off to see green day later this year with the girls!
Princess is off to Paris in the monring with her school for a week. i shall miss her it will be very quiet.
Princess was awarded for outstanding excellence in design technology at her schools prizegiving earlier in the week, and vrought home a cracking annual report. well chuffed.
oh well am off to bed, knackered.
love l xxx
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| posted by Lou Lou @ 9:43:00 PM |
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| Sunday, June 21, 2009 |
Happy Fathers Day you old bastard
I am so bloody angry at you still for leaving me
And yet I understand.
And I miss you
I broke down earlier in the week in a shop whilst buying a fathers day card for princess. I lost complete control. The assistants were crying by the time i had finished. I was mortified.
I have been over emotional this week, silly things have got to me, maybe its time, maybe I am finally ready. it is 6 months on wednesday.
In other news.....
Princess is currently performing a starring role in the new version of the exorcist! She has been horrible with the arrival of periods. I sadly acknowledge i have quite a few more years of this shit ahead.
I am back visiting the vets twice a week again...... skin broken on her leg, hopefully will have healed again by my next visit tomorrow.
thats about it
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| posted by Lou Lou @ 9:49:00 PM |
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| Monday, June 15, 2009 |
Despite the rain, I'm fairly upbeat. I am on an even keel.
My darling beast dog is well on the way to recovery now, her leg finally is fully covered in skin! She still has to wear a cast for a while for support though. The vet bills have been massive, as you would expect them to be for the state she was in.
She is walking proof that love heals.
(Thank you Daddy xxxx)
It's fathers day with weekend. I will buy a card i will not send. I will write with love i hope he feels, i will put it away in a drawer like my emotions, although right now i'm struggling to maintain my composure. God I miss him.
Princess is battling with pmt. She doesn't really understand why she is so volatile, hasn't learnt yet to control it.
I'm going to try and make a concerted effort to blog more, to be happier and not so bloody miserable!!!
Love to you all, and your Daddy's
L x |
| posted by Lou Lou @ 8:20:00 PM |
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| Saturday, May 30, 2009 |
i've had a few moments
moments that remind me how special life is
moments that remind me how much i miss dad
moments that make me feel so very lonely
moments that have made me laugh so hard i've cried
love l x |
| posted by Lou Lou @ 8:27:00 PM |
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| Wednesday, May 20, 2009 |
My life has been full of ups but mainly downs lately.
It's been hard to vent, maybe I'm scared of what will happen when I do....
On Saturday, it will be the 5 month anniversary of losing my Daddy, and yes, I still call him Daddy, he was always my Daddy and him going off and leaving me will not change that. even though I am still angry at him right now. I think that's maybe why I haven't grieved as I should have, I have not even touched the surface.
I always felt i would drown in my tears, in the last 5 months I couldn't have filled a cup, let alone a bucket!
Hot on the heals of losing Daddy, I lost my darling magical man, my Grandad. A brave holder of the Burma Star. A wonderful man who made everyone around him feel warm and loved. he gave the best hugs.
Then my beast dog, she got hit by that car. She was so smashed up, and it wasn't looking good.
Love and miracles happen.
Watched over by my Daddy and Grandad, Beast Dog has had an amazing, but very expensive recovery which is not over yet!
We were looking a few weeks back at possible amputation still if the skin grafts failed again. We were looking at pinning if the skin grafts didn't.
Xrays just a week ago taken showed something amazing. Her leg, it's healing itself. The skin has almost all grown back and there is only a few cms left where there is only flesh showing. her joint which was smashed completely has healed and looks almost perfect now on the xrays!
Finally something good has happened!
warmest wishes to you all
L
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| posted by Lou Lou @ 6:41:00 PM |
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