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| My Family |
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Lou Lou - Me!:::::::
Hubby - Long suffering husband :::::::
Princess - My almost 11 year old daughter :::::::
Beast Dog - My collie cross (who is anything but a beast! :::::::
Arum and Scarum - My folks::::::: Sis- My little sister who is taller than me!::::::: Scarlet - My bestest friend |
| Medically Me! |
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The two biggest medical events were in 1998 when I fractured my spine and in 2003 when I had a golf ball sized benign tumour removed from my breast.
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| Odd Me! |
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I broke my wrist trying to recreate Balero on roller skates, on my own... (twat):::::::
I'm very scared of mice, but cockroaches don't really bother me!(as much):::::::
I am a bit compulsive about washing my hands :::::::
I have Singstar rating singing "Heaven is a Place on Earth!"
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| Random |
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Under Construction! - More to come here!
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| flashback |
| Wednesday, October 04, 2006 |
two years ago i was in a state of despair... not only were my in laws coming to stay but i was on the verge of going into hospital for a major operation.
the pea sized tumour i had foundin my breast in june was now the size of a golf ball was about to be removed and i was shitting it big time
although the op went well i was a bit poorly and as usual as is everything around me there were complications, in the first case my bp and the amount of blood i lost and the 2nd when i had my stitches removed the bastard split open.... full details in the archives but basically there was nothing left in my breast to support the wound
i read through the archives a couple of days ago in tears reliving the anxiety and uncertainty of how i felt back then
- anger
- fear
- resentment
- sorrowful
- tearful
- anxious
- uncertain
- guilt
it took me a really long time to recover and to some degree get over it
guilt
yes guilt, i feel guilt every day that i was lucky compared to the thousands of women who havent been so fortunate it never goes away but also i feel grateful, grateful that i was lucky grateful that the golf ball was benign
two years on..... i have a really large angry scar to remind me - and yes people it's still fresh and raw and whatever the treatments remains to be just as red and irritable i'm unfortunate i have keeloid scaring
i urge you to check your breasts ladies, finding my lump was sheer luck, being benign was another huge case of luck..... you might not be so lucky check it out and get it checked if you find anything.........being left with a scar is a world away from leaving a grieving family and a headstone
i live with a scar
its a symbol
i was lucky
a small price to pay for my life i think
love
l
xxxxxxx
ps
this month is breast cancer awareness month now do as you're told and check em out! |
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