Lou Lou's World!

A 30 something girl in an ordinary world

 
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My Family
Lou Lou - Me!::::::: Hubby - Long suffering husband ::::::: Princess - My almost 11 year old daughter ::::::: Beast Dog - My collie cross (who is anything but a beast! ::::::: Arum and Scarum - My folks::::::: Sis- My little sister who is taller than me!::::::: Scarlet - My bestest friend
Medically Me!
The two biggest medical events were in 1998 when I fractured my spine and in 2003 when I had a golf ball sized benign tumour removed from my breast.
Odd Me!
I broke my wrist trying to recreate Balero on roller skates, on my own... (twat)::::::: I'm very scared of mice, but cockroaches don't really bother me!(as much)::::::: I am a bit compulsive about washing my hands ::::::: I have Singstar rating singing "Heaven is a Place on Earth!"
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billy
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
i've never really felt so alone as i have done lately. well apart from the first 3 months of my last life changing move, but then i had the tumour then too so i was bound to feel down and isolated.

this move has been hard. i've said goodbye to my life as i knew it and once more need to start again. whilst in some ways this can sound like a lot of fun - reinvention, in a way, in others it is oh so very hard. some of my goodbyes were such a wrench.

hubby has slotted right in in his new job, and princess is happier as each day goes by she has a great school and some lovely friends. it's me sat feeling like a square peg in a round hole, sat a right billy no mates as i struggle to meet new people and "get myself out there".

It's not a language problem, i can more than make myself understood it's a connection problem.

I just can't seem to "connect" with anyone.

I spent some time with an old friend last week, it really hammered home what my life is missing right now.

I wonder if anyone notices the sadness i try so hard to hide.

Now don't get me wrong, i'm not unhappy.

I'm not unhappy with my life, i love my hubby, daughter and dog to death and nothing will change that

i'm just sad for the life i left behind.

I know i'll make this life bigger and better, i know i'll make lots of fantastic friends and i know how much my new house already feels like home

it's just these things take time, and i want them NOW!

I miss the silly phonecalls, the dropping in, the sharing of laughs, loves and even the moans

Right now i just feel lonely and i want to cry.

love
L
xxx
posted by Lou Lou @ 1:00:00 pm  
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