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| My Family |
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Lou Lou - Me!:::::::
Hubby - Long suffering husband :::::::
Princess - My almost 11 year old daughter :::::::
Beast Dog - My collie cross (who is anything but a beast! :::::::
Arum and Scarum - My folks::::::: Sis- My little sister who is taller than me!::::::: Scarlet - My bestest friend |
| Medically Me! |
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The two biggest medical events were in 1998 when I fractured my spine and in 2003 when I had a golf ball sized benign tumour removed from my breast.
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| Odd Me! |
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I broke my wrist trying to recreate Balero on roller skates, on my own... (twat):::::::
I'm very scared of mice, but cockroaches don't really bother me!(as much):::::::
I am a bit compulsive about washing my hands :::::::
I have Singstar rating singing "Heaven is a Place on Earth!"
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Under Construction! - More to come here!
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| Today....... |
| Thursday, April 08, 2004 |
Today I broke someone's heart....well not.... broke I wasn't that kind, instead I ripped it out of his chest, threw it on the ground and stomped on it.....F*ck, F*ck, F*ck!!!
Now this wasn't any old man...No, NO, this was my husband, who's adored me silently for years...and how did I repay his love......by shitting all over him.
Today I am ashamed...
Today I hate myself...........
Today I am the woman I never wanted to become......
Today is the day I have to pick up the pieces of his broken heart and try and make some sense of it all.
Who knows where we'll end up..
Today the future looks pretty grim...
Today I am a nobody.......
And for those I have loved and had to leave behind, JJ that's you...I'm so very sorry.
PLEASE DON'T RESCUE ME ...
Help me!
I'm drowning,
I'm fading into the dense blackness,
But this time I don't want to be rescued.
Why me?
Do I have to face it?
Why now?
I want to be a child again,
Free from responsibility and decision,
Free form the emotions that rack my brain,
Fear,
Shame and incredible guilt.
What did I do?
What was I a part of?
Did I break the rules?
How did all this begin, how does it end?
Does it end?
I think not.
I'm scared, running fast, hiding, waiting.
Waiting for those familiar walls to close in.
Who am I?
Where am I?
Who cares...............
Love
Evie
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